The Bachelor’s Corrie Adamson, 23, made audiences cringe during her awkward boat ride with Bachelor Jake. Not only that, but after confessing that she was a virgin during their one-on-one date, he eliminated her during the rose ceremony. PEOPLE talks to Corrie about how she felt during the dates and who she thinks Jake will choose.

You complained you were always a step behind the others.
Jake and I had only one date. Our one-on-one was very much a first date. My feelings for him were not extremely developed and I was behind the other girls. There were a lot of strong personalities there and they dominated our [group] time with Jake. I’m not loud and look-at-me so I don’t think Jake got to see how much I laugh or how easygoing I am. In his defense, how hard is it to pay attention to eight girls at one time?

Should you have pursued him more aggressively?
It isn’t really my personality to go after a guy. I let them come after me. I was just being myself. In general, there isn’t anything I’d do too differently. I got to the top five [not] chasing after him and there were girls who were chasing and got sent home before me. He’ll be a catch for whoever he ends up with, but I don’t think I was the girl for Jake. We just didn’t click.

Should you have kissed Jake earlier?
No. I was not about to kiss him on a group date when he was kissing girls a minute before and after me.

Was the boat ride as awkward as it appeared on TV?

It was my favorite part of the date. We had a lot of fun. He had the perfect opportunity and he didn’t take it. I’m a hard girl to read and I’d been standoffish so I don’t think Jake knew if I wanted him to kiss me or not.

Did Jake’s demeanor change once he found out you’re a virgin?
I think he saw me younger after that and associated that with not having life experiences. But it has nothing to do with my age. If I was Jake’s age and single, I would still be a virgin. And it isn’t because I didn’t have opportunities or am immature. It takes more maturity to put that off.

The show’s preview reel showed you having a breakdown when the virginity issue came up but it wasn’t in the episode.
I did get upset after that conversation. It didn’t happen the way you saw it. The question came out of nowhere and caught me off guard. He’d asked if I’d ever had a one-night stand. I said no and he said, “Are you saving yourself for marriage?” It’s very personal and isn’t something I go announcing on first dates. I’m proud of it, but I didn’t feel it was the right time to have that conversation.

And now the information is out there as you go back to dating.
I didn’t want that coming out on national TV because I want to be able to tell the person that I’m with. It’s frustrating that it’s something they’ll already know now. But I’ve gotten a lot of emails from girls that have been like, “Thank you. You have given me confidence as someone who has made that same decision.” It’s not always a popular decision so it ended up being a good thing.

Did you know you weren’t getting a rose?
I knew when we lined up at the rose ceremony because we talked about the fantasy suite and that I wasn’t willing to do it, and I knew it was important to Jake to get alone time. I wasn’t where he needed me to be and that would put me even farther behind. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with hanging out with a guy behind closed doors, but people wonder if they are having sex. I didn’t want to give people any room to doubt [my virginity] or think I’m saying one thing and doing another.

Do you think he’s found the one?
Honestly, when I left, I didn’t see him with anyone long term. But I think that him and Vienna and Ali had a strong connection. I wouldn’t be surprised to see [him pick Vienna]. She probably makes Jake feel really young and like a man. But I would be surprised if they last. As far as what Jake said he was looking for, they’re very different.

Why is she so hated by the women and do you believe all the rumors about her affairs and stealing money from her ex?
Vienna has a big personality that clashes with the other girls. I don’t think she’s intentionally mean, but she’s young and doesn’t think before she speaks. She’s a funny girl. You have to take [the gossip] with a grain of salt. I think a lot of it is rumors. I don’t think she has a malicious heart, but if Jake would have seen things that went on with just the girls around, the final four would have been different.

I have been really wrapped up in this season. I have no idea why, but I can’t enough of these girls! Jake is ridiculous and cheesy and these girls will do ANYTHING to get with him! Vienna is the ultimate. Every other girl hates her and she keeps on doing the most annoying things around Jake. She is foul. I felt bad for Corrie when she was on her date with Jake because there was absolutely no chemistry. I think she should be proud to be a virgin, but on the other hand, she has to understand that a man that is almost 30 probably doesn’t want to deal with that. She claims that she still has life experiences, but she probably hasn’t had relationship experiences that went beyond a certain level. She will definitely find a guy- he might just be closer to her age and passionate about the same things that she is. I cannot even wait to see how much of a hot mess situation the hometown dates are going to be! You know that Ali and Vienna’s parents are going to be super annoying!